Karma

Karma's a bitch, isn't it?
As soon as I make myself available for you,
You run away, to the arms of another.
You told me you wanted me.
You liked me.
You could hardly help yourself when I was around.
Now, I'm here for you
And you're throwing me away.
Someone you've known for four years,
For someone you've known for hardly four months.

I guess what I'm most upset about,
Is the fact that I let go of something good,
Thinking, hoping, you meant what you said.
Guess I was wrong.
Or that I should've admitted it to you.
But I was scared.
If I did, then it made it all the more real,
All the harder to resist you.

You know how little girls claim they've found their Edward?
Well, I may have found mine. You are so intriguing, such an enigma, I feel I've hardly scratched the surface.
You're the only one I could imagine actually marrying,
If only because of your problems,
And our unique relationship.

And yet, here I am.
Alone again.
Edward's decided I'm not worth his time
And I've decided never to tell him that I thought I was.

Second best again; back where I belong.
Karma's a bitch, isn't it?

Written May 23, 2009