Something to Love

The waves surround me, crashing, breaking,
Just like the waves you create in my heart.
I wish, I hope, I pray you'd realize
How much I wish we never had to part.
Feelings have progressed much deeper than expected,
Their depths seem to know no bounds.
I think I'm back where I once was,
Lost, alone, never on solid ground
When you are involved. I can never be still.
Never sure of my footing,
Never sure where I stand with you,
Knowing you'll never be putting
Me in front of anyone else.
I'll always be second prize,
Something not to be admired,
But coveted, to get a rise
Out of anyone who would see it.
I'm here for a reaction.
I wish you knew how I felt,
Wish I could take some action,
A step in the right direction,
Stop deluding ourselves.
But I'm too scared to lose you,
Too scared to delve
Even deeper into my mind,
Even deeper into my heart.
I wish we could be together,
Have an opportunity to start
Something that was good,
Something that would last,
Something that was love,
Something that is lost all too fast.


Written August 8, 2009